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the empty space

Sunday, January 13 2008

hi. today was intense.

i was thinking on the plane today, as we were making our descent into LAX… well. originally, i was amazed, because LA was unlike anything i’d ever seen. and while i’ve got a lot of LA left to see, i’m sure, today i was a little repulsed. i really like the people i’ve met here, and i’m doing good things at school, but i’m ready to move on past LA in my life.

... yesterday was full of procrastinating, cookie-making, fun-having, and goodbyes. i always cry now, it’s really sad. last night was a ton of fun, but i had to go home early because a) i hadda headache and 2) i had to wake up at 430am in oder to make my plane.

which i did. 430am. and now it’s 1045pm, or 145pm in real new york time. i wanted to call nick tonight, or shane, or sasha, or missy, or jeez i miss home already.

caroline picked me up at the airport. and then took me to home depot to get a key made. and then to the grocery store to get food. turns out there’s one that’s only a few blocks away, so grocery shopping won’t be that hard. i have car rides to school on the two early mornings i have out of the week, mondays and fridays. the other days, my classes don’t start until at LEAST noon thirty, which is not only awesome, but plenty of time to bike to school, methinks. i haven’t even though about how scary it’ll be biking home at midnight or one am or whenever, but that’s not for me to worry about right now.

i’m really tired. we got back here, and had to clean up the old roommates leftover junk. it was really disgusting, all manner of dirt and grime and stuff. we threw away the stuff pretty easy, and ended up wiping down the walls and mopping twice. but now i’ve got some decently clean hardwood floors.

at the moment, my room is very open, because it’s the living room and i don’t have any curtains hung yet as separators. but i also don’t have much junk at all, which is just fantastic. my clothes all fit in this nice open little shelving unit. my desk is practically bare (i hope i can keep it that clean), and the middle of my room is wide open. the walls are yellow, which is happy, and ironic because my last room had a yellow wall not of my making, too.

i’m happy but also worried, and somehow in breathing all the dust and changing climates so drastically and not being used to the smog, i got sick in the manner of about an hour. my nose is crazy stuffed. and i’m really exhausted. i already did a small load of laundry, so i’d have clean sheets on my big bed.

at the moment, my two roommates are not home. the house is pretty quiet, with random house noises occasionally. i’m happy but still worried. life at school always seems to work this way for me; i always end up saying, “if i can make it through this week, i can make it through anything.”

maybe tomorrow i’ll snap a photo of my pleasantly minimalist room.

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